This week has been interesting in the Jenkins household. Monday night Kade woke up, vomited, and then smiled. I thought to myself, "Why is he smiling?" Well he was smiling because he knew he was kindly passing on his germs to his sweet Mama. I came down with the same bug Tuesday, but I didn't bounce back as quickly as he did. Despite Ronnie's bad allergies, he picked up the Mr. Mom hat for two days and kept us all clothed and fed. You ask about Drew...well, Drew just kept right on being Drew, not one sniffle or missed meal!!! God is good! After a million loads of laundry, last night I was just bummed out. I couldn't exactly figure out what the deal was; all I knew was that my spirit had no joy. Ronnie had been sweet, the kids were healthy again, the house was in decent order, so what was my problem? Well, I finally realized that I hadn't been in the Word in almost three days. Duh!!! Matthew 5:3 starts the sermon on the mount, my favorite scriptures. "Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." For a long time I didn't know what "poor in spirit" meant. I couldn't figure out why God wanted me to be poor in anything. Being humble, or poor in spirit, does not mean we put ourselves down and is not self-degradation. Being poor in spirit is acknowledging I am nothing without Christ. We compare ourselves only with Christ, and in doing that we realize we fall very short. But through our salvation and His grace upon grace upon grace we become daughters and sons of the King of Kings. We inherit the kingdom of heaven. Isaiah 57:15 says, "...The Holy One says this: 'I live in the high and holy place with those whose spirits are contrite and humble. I restore the crushed spirit of the humble..." God tells us to lean on Him, but the world tells us to have pride and to be personally independent. Well I can tell you I am poor in spirit. I recognize I am NOTHING without God. Every gift and strength I have is from Him. To keep the spirit of humility James tells us, "So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts (lead a pure life), for you loyalty is divided between God and the world. Let there be tears for what you have done (don't be afraid to express heartfelt sorrow for what you have done)...Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up in honor." Living a life full of humility involves leaning on his guidance and not on your own way. God's ways are higher than our ways and He wants to give us worth and dignity IN HIM. When we totally lean on him; He restores our spirit and gives us peace and joy that surpasses all understanding. Praise God!!!
After three days of not being in the Word, I felt like a deflated balloon. I was sad, moody, discontent, depressed, etc. I was being lead by my emotions and not by my faith. When we are constantly being bombarded with things of this world, we have to fill our balloons up with God's Word or we'll be stuck on the ground with the enemy. A Sunday School teacher from Seminole related this to a story about two dogs that live inside us, a black dog and a white dog. These dogs are fighting within us everyday. Depending on which dog we feed will determine which dog wins. Ask yourself when you are sad or things around you are falling apart, when was the last time you had an exciting experience with God. Was it last month, last week? If the answer isn't today, you have found the problem. I don't know about you, but I am a deflated balloon with God and His powerful Word, but with Him I am filled!!!
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