Saturday, February 28, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
We have checked every hour on the hour (literally =) for seedlings and this morning we found this:
(actually the picture doesn't do the growth justice =)
We actually have two leaves on our marigold seedlings this afternoon...who knew watching plants grow could be so exciting...or maybe I just need to get out more ????
I went to Wal-Mart Sunday, and picked up more seeds to plant for two reasons:
1. It is something for the boys and I to do together (plus I am sure I get extra "mom points" because this is a "learning activity" right???=)
2. After watching Glenn Beck's "The War Zone" Saturday night on Fox, I decided I need to start teaching the boys "survival" skills. (Seriously DO NOT watch that show right before you go to bed...SCARY)
Packing the dirt with those chubby little fingers.
The boys have been working on "school" projects. I think Ronnie and I are going to send Drew to Pre-K two mornings at week at Levelland Christian School. I know he is ready, but me...not so much! I can't believe they are growing up so fast.
Pictures below of Drew and Kade working on their names!You can see in this picture Kade is wearing Drew's old shoes. I hid the red Lightin' McQueen Crocs thinking he would get over the shoe obsession...NO! He started wearing an old pair of Drew's except these cause him to have HORRIFIC foot odor. Seriously it smells worse than any man I have ever been around. Kade keeps things interesting! Never a dull moment - and I love it!
I am having a hard time with Kade getting so big...the baby stage is over. I realized last night Kade is the same age Drew was when I had him. The other night I had to just go into their bedroom and hold Kade's little, chubby, elephant-knuckled hand. I would have bottled up that moment if I could have.
The plants aren't the only thing growing around here: Kade is weighing in at 32 pounds and is 35 1/2 inches tall. Drew is 43 3/4 inches tall and weighing 45.5 pounds (he has shot up 1 3/4 inches since the first of September). Kade's new thing to say (in a real gruff, bearish growl) "Mama, Come On!" He has also started putting his baby puppy (a little blanket with a dog head that he carries around) to sleep. He rocks it, lays it down on a pillow, and tell all of us, "Shh! Baby seepin'!" I need to get him saying it on camera because the "Shh!" part with his little chubby finger over his lips is priceless.
The boys spent the evening sitting in the boat in our front yard pretending to fish. Ronnie is already tunin' up the boat for this spring/summer. WE are planning on doing a lot of camping, fishing, and vacationing with the boys. We are looking for good places to camp...please leave me suggestions if you know of any!!! The boys just can't wait...I don't know if they'll be able to sleep tonight after talking about sleeping in the tent, making s'mores, playing Hungry Hippo all night long, tubing, going fishing, etc.
Monday, February 16, 2009
The view off of our back porch balcony!!! Isn't it beautiful...I could have spent the entire day sitting out there with a good book and hot chocolate!
Ryan and Jose playing the WII
Our extremely hot hubbies - Ryan Crutcher, Cody Johnson, Jose Rodriguez, and Ronnie
The girls - Me, Misty, Shannon and Holly at Casa Blanc Saturday night!
The group on Sunday morning - we were all exhausted!!! The boys could barely walk from the skiing =)
You can go to Holly's Blog for more pictures from the weekend!!!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Last night a dream came true for me. Last night a prayer was answered when I was given the chance to go and share my "God story" with the young ladies of FBC Seminole. I was given two verses Ps. 139:14 and Ephesians 3:17-19 and as I searched out God's Voice in these verses I reveled in each new revelation HE gave me. He showed me how both of these verses have everything to do with HIS REAL LOVE, the theme for the night. I have been in prayer for weeks for each young lady in attendance, I felt God's hand on me through it all. But when I finished my talk I felt like I had failed. I felt like I had not hit the mark. I felt lost. I felt confused. I felt unsure of who or what I was. I felt like I wasn't enough in that moment.
I kept thinking to myself, "Dawn, this is the very thing you talked to the girls about, what is wrong with you?" Then I realized I might know about "IN HIM I AM ENOUGH" but I don't own it. You know? Head knowledge and heart knowledge are two different things and when your feelings are battling your head knowledge the feelings always end up as victors. So where does that leave me? What do I do now? I want to roll around under the covers and eat cinnamon rolls, but I can't. I want to cry. I want to sleep. I want to make the awful thoughts in my head to turn off. I want peace. I need peace, so there is only one thing I can do...I have to go to God's Word.
Last night my friend Sara read a poem titled "Who Am I?" by Shelly Hitz. The following words touched the very core of my soul
"Who Am I? My first answer would probably be my name. But, my name doesn't describe who I am on the inside. I could then give the title of my profession. But that is what I do. I could tell you I am a wife, a sister, a daughter. But those are my relationships. I ask again, WHO AM I? I could describe myself as an extrovert and outgoing. But that is my personality. I am organized in planning events. But that is a gift God has given me. I could describe my appearance, but that is not who I am either. (here is where it really hit home for me) So many times I have believed what others say I am. If I receive affirmation, then I feel worthwhile. However, when I receive criticism, then I feel like a failure. I have chosen to ride the roller coaster of emotions, instead of believing the truth of what God says about me. I have tried to work harder to prove I am worthwhile. Yet every time I mess up or fail, I am reminded that I will never measure up. I will never be pretty enough or talented enough. I will never be skinny enough or do enough good things in church. I will never be a good enough wife or sister or daughter (OR MOTHER). But I keep trying harder and harder. I BELIEVE the lie that if I continue to try harder I will finally be "good" enough."
My head is spinning and my hands are frozen...I don't know how to follow this up. My entire life feels wrapped up in the lie that if I try harder and work harder I will be good enough. Good enough for Ronnie, good enough for Drew and Kade, good enough in my mind's eye, good enough for my mom and dad -BUT you know what I never measure up. I always look to others and ask the question, "Am I enough?" Why do we do that? Am I the only one? I told the girls last night we are suppose to take those questions to God because there will be days our emotions (our flesh) tell us we aren't enough but God's Word says we are.
God's Word says I am enough. While I was a sinner, He sent His only son, Jesus Christ to die for me. Romans 5:8
God's Word says that I am His Masterpiece. Ephesians 2:10
God's Word says that I am the apple of His eye. Psalm 17:8
God's Word says He delights over me with singing - EVEN ON MY BAD DAYS. Zeph 3:17
God's Word says I was chosen to be His own special treasure. Deut 7:6
God's Word says I am important enough that He knows all my thoughts. Psalm 139:17-18
God's Word says my sorrow is important enough that He counts my tears. Psalm 56:8
God's Word says He will never leave me or forsake me. Hebrews 13:5
God's Word says I am enough...not on my own. No on my own all my righteous acts are like filthy rags to Him, Isaiah 64:6. But by the very grace of God I am enough. Am I enough that He will leave me where I am at? NO, I he loves me too much to leave me here; I am a work in progress , but He is faithful to complete what He started in me. (Phil 1:6) I have to rest in the knowledge of who I am IN HIM. Nothing else, no accomplishment, no goal obtained, no "feeling", no compliment will fill the spot in my heart to make me feel like I am good enough.
ONLY IN HIM AM I ENOUGH.
I don't feel it today, but I can't follow my heart. Jeremiah 17:9 says, "the human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked." So today I choose to believe God's Word. Today I CHOOSE to rest in it. Today I CHOOSE to live it. Today I CHOOSE to be enough in HIM.
So today I begin a new journey. A journey to not just have this head knowledge...but, to own it - for it to be blueprinted on the lining of my heart.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
The girls in the "spa" having their nails done and hair fixed!!!
We tried to make the gym look elegant with tulle...like I said, we tried!!!
The girls arrived at 6, ate pizza and then listened to the Praise Band. Thanks to Stacy, Dustin, Greg, and Amber for "rockin" it out. The girls loved it; they were dancing, singing and jumping all around. Holly said it look like I mosh (sp?) pit!!!! We also had a speaker come in from Dallas, Shelly Conrad (go check out her website and prepare to be amazed!). She totally "captivated" the girls while talking about being a child of God. If you are ever in need of a speaker, I highly recommend her!
Then the girls broke into three groups to rotate through our three sessions. Session 1 was about how to have a quiet time. Thank you Holly, Christy, and Casey!!! After the presentation the girls decorated devotionals made by Amie!!! I have already had a report that two of the girls, that our sisters, have been having their own quiet time every night since Friday!!! God is sooooo good!!!
Session 2 was on the ACTS way to pray. The girls made BEAUTIFUL crystal/silver bracelets designed by Shannon, Stephanie, and Amber!!!